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I can’t tell you how much I appreciated this post from Asperger’s: Through My Eyes. It offered insights I hadn’t realized before.

Aspergers and Lack Of Awareness of Body Signals | Aspergers: Through My Eyes.

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I think it’s important to share the opinions of Actually Autistic people. I’m non-autistic, so even though I’m a parent of an autistic daughter, my opinion doesn’t mean quite as much as that of Actually Autistic people. Before I share my thoughts, this is a great blog entry, shared with permission, from Thoughts from an Autistic Vegan: What’s wrong with Autism Speaks from an Autistic point of view. I’d like to thank Autistic Vegan again for letting me share this.

Saturday, July 11, 2015

What’s wrong with Autism Speaks from an Autistic point of view

It seems everyone is aware of autism these days. I can’t think of anyone I have met, who has never heard of autism.  Autism Speaks has made sure that we are all aware.  Their latest awareness piece came in the form of an article in People magazine, proclaiming Bob and Suzanne Wright to be heroes, battling the autism epidemic.  Battling. Epidemic. The hate speech never ends with Autism Speaks.  It is as if they are unaware that Autistic people don’t want you to go to war with our brains.  My family became aware of our own autism, right at the same time that Autism Speaks was getting off the ground, and becoming a widely known entity.  So they made sure that we knew that autism was something to be afraid of.  My Autistic son was 5 years old in 2009, when Autism Speaks stated, “I am autism…. I work faster than pediatric aids, cancer, and diabetes combined.  And if you’re happily married, I will make sure that your marriage fails.”  http://autisticadvocacy.org/2009/09/horrific-autism-speaks-i-am-autism-ad-transcript/ Where are the help and the resources? OT services could be provided for families to get help with understanding their children’s sensory needs.  Communication devices to help people communicate more effectively with their families would certainly help many of us. No, fear is all Autism Speaks has to offer.   Autism Speaks raises millions of dollars with their pity campaigns, and yet, only gives 4% back to families in the communities. http://loveexplosions.net/2014/10/31/oops-they-did-it-again-autism-speaks-2013-financials-just-released/

My son was only 2 years old when Autism Speaks made a documentary called Autism Every Day.  This movie is a pity party for parents of Autistic children, the worst part being when a mom talks about wanting to drive her Autistic child off a bridge, while her Autistic daughter is in the room, and says she only did not do that because of her other, non-Autistic child. http://tinyurl.com/nnhveky These are the things that do the most damage.  Autistic children are murdered by their parents at an alarming rate.  Yet, in the media, which Autism Speaks is always at the center of, this is excused.  People lament the lack of services, think of the martyr parents, and shake their heads at the unfortunate lot in life to have an Autistic child. http://www.autistichoya.com/2013/03/honoring-dead.html In their most recent documentary, Sounding the Alarm, there is more of the same.  Over and over again, the message from Autism Speaks is that autism is an epidemic to be battled.  They don’t take the time to talk to Autistic people of any age to get their opinions on what services are needed, or what message should be sent to the world at large. Instead, they speak to weeping parents, and call for more services as they exploit Autistic people’s darkest moments for profit. They show a complete and utter disrespect for Autistic people in every action that they take.  Because of this, it is very difficult for me to tell people that I am Autistic.  I know it changes their opinion of me, because of the lies that Autism Speaks told them about people like me. No organization has done more harm to the community they claim to help.  It makes me sad that they are the leading resource doctors, therapists, businesses, and everyone else, looks to when seeking information about autism.  How can they be the leading resource when they do not even consult with Autistic people in any meaningful roles?  https://www.autismspeaks.org/about-us/board-directors It’s time for people to stop listening to Autism Speaks, and start listening to Autistic people.

 

This blog entry has several things going through my mind. First, I think I’ll let this marinate a little while for you guys to read. Then I’ll post my own thoughts. But first, please let me emphasize this for other non-autistic parents of autistic children: our children’s opinions on autistic matters including themselves are more important than our own. Who knows what’s better for someone than the people that are having policies and decisions and social discussions about them? I think this reblogged entry I just shared is one that we need to pay attention to, because it’s a common theme among adult autistic self-advocates. 

 

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Psychology Today shared an article called Why French Kids Don’t Have ADHD. I keep revising this post because I really don’t want to come off sounding preachy or as if I’m offended when what I really am is exhausted and frustrated with the attitude that the article perpetuates. There is a very permeating attitude in the U.S. as well as France that ADHD and ADD not only are overdiagnosed, but don’t exist. I’d like to suggest that instead most people aren’t aware of what having ADHD/ADD actually entails.

There’s a very stereotypical view of ADHD of hyperactive boys running around screaming, throwing things and wrestling with classmates, or exhausting poor mom to the point of mom having to simply shove her child out the door to burn off energy “somehow.” And the comments that follow are usually along the lines of the child simply being a child that needs fresh air and any behavior problems can be solved with More Strict Discipline a.k.a. Spanking or A Good Whipping or better yet…. Just One Day At MY House.

Yes, these types of comments are common.

  • Don’t you know that ADHD is another way to say, “My disciplinary skills as a parent are a failure and now I want to medicate my child?” You need a second opinion. Oh wait… did you doctor shop?  Discipline is a small part of ADHD. You can be the most strict, loving, firm parent there is and your child can still present disciplinary challenges like none you’ve ever seen or expected. ADHD is not a reflection of a parent’s failure to discipline. It does take time to figure out what type of discipline works best in certain situations, but as with Autism, what may work one day may not work another day.
  • ADHD is a junk diagnosis and doesn’t exist; it’s a lazy label; why are you labeling your child with a diagnosis that isn’t even real?  Parents who have one or more children ADHD/ADD will tell you it’s not a junk diagnosis. It’s an answer for what’s happening in the child’s life that will hopefully help them be able to address what’s happening in a different way. It’s an ability to identify a group of behaviors and patterns of thought in order to help the child learn coping skills, and the parents learn different parenting skills for that child.
  • Ah, ADHD, a diagnosis for, “Normal childhood behaviors that we don’t want to deal with and would rather medicate”  ADHD is not automatically something that is medicated. Medicating a child is serious business, and the only one that should be prescribing a child medications like that is a Developmental Behavioral Pediatriatrian, a Pediatric Neurologist, or a Child Psychiatrist with the agreement of both parents. And for the record, teachers and principals have nothing to do with the decision making process and can’t make ultimatums regarding medicating a child whether the child is pre- or post- ADHD diagnosis.
  • When I was a child those doctors put me on Ritalin and it turned me into a zombie… meds are terrible and doctors just want to get your money because they’re all controlled by BigPharma!  First, who actually says Big Pharma? ;-) Conspiracy theorists who need an evaluation themselves, ha ha. I keed, I keed, but seriously.  Second, if a medication makes someone feel “like a zombie” that’s an indication that a medication is either an incorrect dosage or it’s the incorrect medication. Period, full stop.Additionally, pharmacies and pharmaceutical companies are in the business because guess what? They’re businesses. In order to stay in business they’re allowed to try to make money. It’s not unethical for them as businesses to expect payment for their product a.k.a. medication of any kind. They need to be paid for their services just like anyone else, even if some of the meds cost less than a penny per unit to produce. They’re marked up due to not only the ingredients used, the development for new medications, use of the equipment, paying for transportation of medications and paying their employees. People who work in pharmaceuticals deserve to be paid fairly, just like anyone else. Medicine is a business. Doctoring is a business. Services rendered deserve payment.
  • Really? You think it’s ADHD? Don’t you think a more natural approach would be best? People who jump to medication just don’t think things through!  There’s an automatic assumption by many that the purpose of an ADHD diagnosis is to get the child medicated. There’s also an automatic assumption by people that Medications Are Bad. Again, medicating a child is serious business, not to be taken lightly. Most parents don’t enter that decision lightly one way or the other.Additionally, most parents I know that parent children who cope with ADHD do indeed use every natural method possible first… and even once medication is started, we/they continue using those natural methods in order to minimize the dosage.
  • I’ll bet you’re one of those parents who’s completely opposed to medication? God, those people are so judgmental and don’t think things through!  Again, assumptions. There’s nothing wrong with being opposed to medications for ADD or ADHD. Parents are allowed to make that choice for themselves and their children. My only hope when it comes to medications is that whichever decision is made… to medicate or not AND whichever homeopathic or naturopathic or dietary methods… or even a combination of all of these methods is used is that they are ALL well researched.  There isn’t one single perfect formula. Every child is different.
  • Oh, you need to get the school off your back. You can’t allow teachers to do that to you. They pressure parents constantly to get the diagnosis because they just don’t want to deal with children, they can’t control classrooms anymore. You know they just want you to medicate her so they don’t have to control her natural exuberance!   This is my favorite. Teachers can offer their opinions, but no one at the school, not even the school psychologist EVEN IF a neuro-psych evaluation is performed by the school (and only with your permission, by the way, by way of a PPT) can diagnose ANYTHING including ADHD. A neuro-psych from the school can back up a private evaluation; it can stand alone as a way to help target your child’s strengths and challenges in order to figure out how best to teach your child and individualize their education plan (IEP). But they can’t diagnose. This is why if you ever suspect ANYTHING of your child medically or neurologically you MUST get an independent evaluation because your IE will trump the school’s IE if your child needs services and the school’s IE is a bit, mmm, lackluster.
  • Why are you so eager to label your child? Everyone has a label these days! There’s a diagnosis for everything! What makes you think ADHD is such a good label? It’s not! It’s going to follow him/her for life!  This one is worst when it’s the Autism diagnosis… it’s hurtful. I’m not a “label happy” parent. Unfortunately, I’ve seen so many parents who suspect their child is on the Autism Spectrum but refuse to get their child evaluated for services due to a fear of a “label.”  What some individuals don’t realize is that the “label” is a medical diagnosis which is intended to help the child who will grow into an adult. The diagnosis is intended to help target services in order to best teach that child; in order to best adapt the environment; and in order to ensure that the child has a level playing field to his/her peers. So yeah… “labels” are kind of a good thing if your child needs services and you need to identify the type of services. If it means your child will get the best education possible, get over your dislike of labels. Fast.
  • ADHD is such an over-diagnosed bunch of crap! This is another way of saying that ADHD (and Autism) is diagnosed far more often than it was back in the 60’s, 70’s, 80’s or whichever romanticized decade or century they’re thinking of when no one was ever sick, no one needed medications or doctors or hospitals. There’s a reason for that. Better diagnostic tools. Parents being more educated when they suspect something is going on with their children. The internet. And with the internet there are even teenagers and tween that are looking up their own symptoms when they realize they’re not quite like their peers in how their brains work, and they approach their parents with the request for an evaluation.
  • Back in my day as a child, no one was ever diagnosed with anything! It’s all the crap in our food and environment! It’s vaccines! The government is poisoning us! So very much conspiracy theory to address. There’s a reason people weren’t diagnosed back in the day. This one is often paired up with the previous comment, and the reasons why people weren’t diagnosed back in the day are the same. The children who had ADHD and ADD were the “space cadet” kids and the class clowns. They were the eccentric kids who couldn’t get their shit together no matter how hard they tried. If they were Autistic AND had ADHD, they were institutionalized. Kids with severe ADHD were threatened with military school. They were often high school drop outs. They had a lot of run ins with law enforcement.

    And if you want to know my stance on vaccines, go to my search bar and type it in. Go ahead.

  • But forcing children to sit all day in school is unnatural! They’re supposed to be in fresh air playing ALL DAY LONG EVERY DAY!  Really? Stop romanticizing the past. And also, office jobs. Any jobs indoors. Most jobs require people to sit, stand, or otherwise stay still for moderately long periods in order to be able to focus on job functions. Not to mention movies in a theater. Meetings. Appointments. Many different types of social interactions. This is a skill that not everyone is naturally capable of. Children need to be taught this skill to begin with, and for some, their neurological differences make learning this much-needed skill a challenge.
  • ADHD huh? You know what I did when the teachers and doctors told me my child has ADHD? I took my kid out of school to homeschool and you should too.  I like to ask how things are working out in situations like that, but I’m evil that way. Most often the “school day at home” lasts all of two hours with the two hours scattered all throughout the day because Junior can’t sit still or focus or isn’t interested. And the child isn’t learning a damn thing.  PLEASE NOTE: I’m not slamming homeschooling. I think when it’s done right, it’s a great tool.  If you’re doing it right, I’m not talking about you and I’m not talking about homeschooling in general. I think homeschooling can be fantastic.  I even think it can be fantastic for some Autistic kids and some kids that have ADHD. The point I’m trying to make here is that when there’s been a diagnosis by doctors regarding ADHD/ADD; when a school has performed an evaluation that indicates ADHD/ADD backing up a doctor’s diagnosis; and the school and doctor are trying to help with an education plan or 504… accept the help that’s offered. ADHD isn’t a life sentence. It’s an answer. Autism isn’t a life sentence either. It’s an answer to a collection of challenges and differences to help understand what an individual needs to cope in a world that’s not made for neurodiversity.
  • Let that kid spend a couple HOURS in MY house; they won’t have “ADHD” or any other “disorder” when they leave! Yeah… um… none of my children will be spending ANY time alone in your house without me present. And we just might not be spending much time with you at all. This judgmental statement says everything in those few words with the added tone that violence would come into play.
  • Spare the rod and spoil the child, I always say. The Bible says so. If you don’t use REAL discipline then they won’t mind you.  The insinuation here, of course, is that children with ADHD and/or Autism aren’t disciplined, and being disciplined isn’t an expectation from the parents.  The judgment is that discipline isn’t Discipline unless physical corporal punishment is involved. Except that corporal punishment is, in my experience, physical abuse. It instills fear, not respect.  And ADHD and Autism aren’t about obedience, blind or otherwise. They’re about Neuro-diversity.

    Additionally, I love it when people misunderstand this phrase. The phrase is actually saying to use spanking/hitting with a rod/switch sparingly because if you use it too often, the method of intended discipline will be spoiled ie. it won’t work. The Bible never once endorses abusing children. It’s amazing to me how some parents build an entire discipline of spanking philosophy around this single phrase without ever understanding what it really means.The fact is that you don’t need to physically harm a child or induce fear in a child to have them respect you. Loving them and respecting them and treating them well, treating them like people instead of miniature selves that simply need to obey instructions raises up respectful, kind, loving children. Discipline in it’s actual definition means “to teach.” Use discipline the way it’s intended… teaching. Trust your children to be able to learn without threats and physical harm no matter what the parental intent is behind it.

  • That kid just needs a good beating! No one needs a beating. Trust me. The way many adults “discipline” children would land them in jail if they treated other adults the same way because when you do it to adults it’s called assault and battery.  Plus, see above response to above common comment.
  • That kid just doesn’t have enough responsibilities; they’re allowed to get away with too much and has too much time on their hands.  Again, assumptions. In the majority of parents I know who have children with ADHD and/or Autism, responsibilities and independence and learning these skills are very important. We are, after all, raising adults.
  • Where are the parents? Doing what they can to help their child learn coping skills, independent living skills, how to be responsible, and how to become a productive member of society just like every other parent is doing with their non-ADHD and non-Autistic children…  while also recognizing that not every single moment of life has to be a teaching moment or disciplinary moment. Parents don’t cause ADHD. A child doesn’t cause their own ADHD. It’s neurological, and most often it’s genetically inherited. Oh boy, is it.

So. There are a lot of things wrong in each of those statements, paraphrased in all different ways all over the internet and in real life. I’ve heard nearly all of it. I can’t understand a lot of these comments because until I had a children that are neuro-diverse (one who is Autistic and one with ADHD and ODD) I was exactly the same way.

I was a perfect parent until I had children.

Parenting in general changed me. Parenting children that provide certain parenting challenges that aren’t exactly typical… that changed my entire way of thinking. It humbled me. It educated me. I thought that half the battle was discipline and parenting, and the other half was part diet and part biology. I thought that some parents just might not know how to handle energetic children.

I was only half right.

Discipline, parenting, diet, all play a very big part. That’s the nurture part. But biology… neurology…  the nature part is huge. When something is part of someone’s neurology and how their brain actually works then it’s time to sit up and pay attention. The fact is that the majority of people don’t have ADHD, just as the great majority of people don’t have Autism. ALL people who have ADHD and/or Autism have different neurologies than individuals who aren’t neuro-diverse. The fact is that even though diagnoses seemed to have increased, the amount of children who are Autistic and have ADHD has not increased. It’s just that Autistic individuals used to be institutionalized. If someone had ADHD they were a problem child. And very, very often individuals with ADHD have additional neurological differences like learning differences that need to be addressed and they weren’t.  Those children weren’t identified the way they are now. That’s big. That’s GOOD.

So, when I read comments like that whenever the topic of ADHD (and even Autism) comes up, I see how they rile up other similar-thinking individuals who make the sort of comments I shared above. The common thread is that children and teens with ADHD are simply high energy that need to have that energy burned off and the parents are just burned out or lazy; that the kids are viewed as hard to handle, misbehaving monsters; have parents that can’t control them and have given up; that these kids have parents who only want to put them in their place or don’t try hard enough to put them in their place.  And there are always people who have opinions on whether to medicate or not; when it’s appropriate and when it’s not.

The ones that bother me the most are the ones who insist ADHD is really a label for lazy parenting and that ADHD is a junk diagnosis that parents want to medicate their out of control children over.  If you fall on the side of the fence where this is what what you believe, I think that it’s misguided and misinformed and you need some more education on what Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder and Attention Deficit Disorder actually is. It would be very beneficial to you and possibly to your friends who may have been hurt by your judgmental comments; and it could be beneficial to your own family members.

Yes, I realize that this particular entry hasn’t addressed in depth what ADHD entails. I’m saving that for another post, and I hope to address it from the point of view of girls having ADHD.

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I ended up wearing rainbow colors that day that I wrote about doing anything, even wearing blue. I just… I realized that supporting her meant more than wearing the blue because it’s her favorite and she asked me and she thought I’d be celebrating her. It meant so, so much more and I tried to explain why I wore a rainbow-flower skirt with a purple shirt (my own favorite color) in a way she could understand. But how do you explain that wearing blue, lighting it up blue, is a trigger event and silences Autistic Voices? That anything explaining away why it’s okay is really not okay?

And that’s what I think I did in that entry, and I wholeheartedly apologize, no qualifications.

So how did I explain to my daughter why I broke the blue promise…

Rainbows and flowers are love, and everyone loves flowers. Autism is full of wonderful colors, not just blue, and even if the flowers in my skirt were fuzzy at the edges they were far prettier than puzzle pieces all over the school walls. She nodded in agreement.

I told her that I wanted her to be able to choose from all of the colors in the rainbow when she’s making friends, when she’s thinking, when she’s getting dressed, when she’s looking outside, all just like when she’s painting or making crafts. She nodded more with each example.

I told her that an agency named Autism $peaks created the Light It Up Blue idea, and that we don’t like all of their ideas because some of their ideas include wanting to cure Autism. I asked her if she remembered hearing about that several days before, and she nodded with a Very Serious Expression on her face.

Then I explained that there are other supportive agencies that want to help her and others like her grow and be happy, and learn to be a self-advocate as she grows up and becomes a teenager and an adult.

I explained that sometimes we were going to have to have different kinds of conversations now about how some people think Autism is not a good thing and how we can change those ideas by showing them the good things and teaching them about the ideas that they don’t quite have right. That sometimes people believe things about Autism that aren’t true, but that we can help educate them. She nodded. She seemed to like the idea of being an educator instead of the student.

I explained that there would be times we would be talking about the better ideas that Mommy has read about from the good agencies so that Mommy can better understand who is a helper and who is not… and that I think she’s getting old enough to learn those things too.

She nodded her head, with a furrowed brow, and said, “Mm hmm.”

“Do you have any questions?”

“Can I still wear my blue skirt?”

“Yes. Always. You can even keep blue as your own favorite color.”

“Mm hmm. Yes.”

“Do you want to ask me more?”

“I don’t know.”

She walked away. So that was that.

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Great way of showing what I’ve been trying to say, but more succinctly. Check out this post below from Jess at Diary of a Mom.

communication | a diary of a mom.

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April 1st: Rainbow of RosesMy Sweet Girl loves blue. Of course, she also likes green, pink, and purple, but she says she loves blue the best.

Last year she started to notice that her elementary school was taking part in encouraging the students ahead of time to wear blue and “light it up blue” for April 2nd in order to show solidarity and celebrate Autism. They teach the children about Autism and why it’s important to be accepting of differences, and how autistic children and teens and adults might think differently but are still just the same as everyone else. They show the children the positives, but also teach the children that there can be difficulties, challenges, obstacles, that might be hard for them to understand if they aren’t autistic themselves, and it’s very important to know that they don’t have to be afraid. They shouldn’t bully children that show autistic behaviors, but should be friends with them and protect them. They don’t have to accept being bullied themselves by anyone, and if they see a child that they think might have disabilities such as happens with Autism, they should speak up.

Now, this isn’t what my Sweet Girl told me. She came home and told me that the whole school dresses up on April 2nd in her favorite color, blue, especially and specifically to celebrate her.  As a 6th grader she plans to wear blue tomorrow to celebrate herself.

I learned that this is what the elementary students are being taught by a neighbor’s daughter this morning because she was so excited to tell me about having learned about Autism in school to prepare for tomorrow. She’s excited to learn more, and she’s even more excited that she can share positive experiences with classmates because she’s at our house nearly every day. I remember how sad she was when she heard that there are people who would want to cure Autism and prevent people from being born with it. She immediately said, “But then there wouldn’t be awesome people like G!”

This morning my neighbor girl also told me how much she enjoys Sweet Girl and there are lots of things she loves that Sweet Girl does. Her very favorite thing is when I hold up my hand to give a high five, and Sweet Girl goes to give me a fist bump instead… but when I hold up my hand to give her a fist bump she puts up her own hand to give me a high five. She loves Sweet Girl’s sense of humor; she loves seeing how Sweet Girl can start her morning routine with the worst of moods and then change it around by helping me bake muffins or smelling coffee and giggling that giggle that Sweet Girl does.

Those are the things she wants to share. We’ve turned our little 9 year old neighbor into an advocate and ally already. ;-)  She plans to wear blue head to toe in honor of Sweet Girl.

This does present a dilemma in my own mind because these girls really don’t connect lighting themselves up blue with the damage done by Autism $peaks. How do I tell these children that they shouldn’t because it’s offensive to those of us who know what it’s connected to? That if they come across an autistic individual who would be offended knowing the significance as a self-advocate, it could cause a trigger effect for that person that could last hours or days? How do I justify taking away their excitement to learn more positive things and their desire to educate and not just make people aware but ACCEPTING?

These kids get it, you know… that it’s about accepting now and not just awareness. After all I think that there are probably only 12 people left in the developed world that have never heard of Autism. As a nation, we’re definitely aware. The problem is that as a nation, we’re not educated and we’re definitely not accepting. We can’t even accept disabilities as a whole let alone Autism. We have a self-proclaimed Autism support agency, Autism $peaks, who takes donations and doesn’t put them towards services but towards research that would try to find cures and prevention. We have parents who try to murder their disabled children, and apologists for them who “understand what they’re going through” hoping courts will be lenient and demanding others not judge them. We have comedians making vicious fun of disabled people. We have musicians writing offensive song lyrics against autistic people. We have every day people using the word autistic as a slur and an insult just as they use stupid, moron, idiot, and dumb (all ableist language).

These kids are getting it. This is why I support mainstream education rather than separating the students that have disabilities from the non-disabled students. It’s not just about educating them and telling them in a Do As I Say, Not As I Do situation. It’s about seeing each other as equals because heads up, they are, and treating them as such because guess what, they are. It’s about learning that being different doesn’t mean less, and it doesn’t mean segregation. It shows all of the children, including the children with disabilities, that we ALL have challenges and obstacles and we all need different kinds of help.

It teaches more than tolerance, more than awareness… it teaches acceptance. A quiet, natural acceptance.

A major issue with what April as Autism Awareness Month means is that for the teen and adult self-advocates that are aware and educated about the intricacies of the history of how society treats disabled individuals; that have been through traumatic experiences as they’ve grown up for various reasons at the hands of their parents, peers, education, therapies; how society specifically currently views Autism as a whole; and last but not least the intense spotlight that this “awareness month” puts on Autistic individuals is this:

It’s not the right kind of attention for many Autistics.  It’s anxiety inducing.

Donations often go to agencies that are not supportive of Autism at all, nor of Autism Services (Autism $peaks I’m looking at you).

It’s a huge burden to bear to be the face of Autism for an entire month.

It’s a huge burden to bear to be expected to educate people for an entire month.

It’s a huge burden to bear to have to argue with parents who have not accepted their child’s neuro-diversity even if their child is in their  40’s or 50’s.

It’s a huge burden to bear to be expected to “overcome” their disabilities or show them off for others.

It’s an even worse burden to have to defend being Autistic in a world that still wants to cure you and insists that it needs to prevent Autism in others. Autistics around the world feel that if their parents wished they weren’t Autistic, that if they could stamp it out, then they’re also wishing they were stamped out. There is no distinction between their person-hood and their autism.

It’s not fair when parents use this month to spotlight how much they hate Autism, causing Autistics around the world to feel that they are hated. If you hate Autism, they feel you must hate them as well. That’s a reasonable feeling. There is no distinction between their person-hood and their autism.

I can’t say that I disagree.

That’s an awful lot to bear. That’s why at only 12 years old, I’m really not sure that I want to take the joy out of my daughter’s eyes when she sees her classmates wearing blue because her interpretation is that it’s all in her personal honor. It’s Sweet Girl Day tomorrow. I know she’ll ask me to wear blue for her, just as she did last year. I sigh as I write this because I know the social implications, but for my daughter? I’ll do anything. Maybe I’ll wear a multi-colored something.

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Happy April! What a gorgeous day today is. All of my girls are feeling well; it’s sunny and temperatures are supposed to reach 40*F; I’m finishing my first cup of coffee while wearing one of my favorite sweaters before getting ready for work.

I think it’s time to assess the things I’m grateful for, especially with Easter coming up this weekend.

Today, on April 1st 2015, I’m very grateful for:

  1. coffee
  2. very large coffee mugs
  3. like, coffee mugs that will fit three 12-oz servings of coffee to drink all at once and that’s like… oh sheesh, math… 36 oz in one mug!
  4. the fact that my family understands the importance of coffee in my life
  5. my husband
  6. my children
  7. seeing so much good in my daughters, with love reflected back to me and in everything they do
  8. my brothers
  9. all of my sisters-in-law
  10. all of my brothers-in-law
  11. my parents and my mother-in-law
  12. my very best friends, my chosen sisters
  13. the good health of my family and friends
  14. my job
  15. the fact that most days I can still function enough to go to work
  16. working toilets
  17. working heat
  18. blankets
  19. sweaters
  20. fluffy slippers
  21. my Kindle
  22. kitchen gadgets
  23. the fact that it hasn’t snowed in two whole days
  24. God answering my prayers in small ways that matter
  25. a working phone
  26. working clothes washer and dryer
  27. payday
  28. my invisible internet friends
  29. oh my gosh, my CATS of course
  30. and how did I not put chocolate on this list by now?
  31. and Girl Scout cookies?
  32. God, there’s something wrong with me today. I also forgot hot showers
  33. and paper towels
  34. and freshly washed warm bath towels
  35. being able to bake with my daughters
  36. family being appreciate (usually) of my cooking)
  37. a (kind of) working (kind of) reliable car
  38. getting X-Finity over frontier because frontier sucks donkey balls, let’s face it
  39. DVR
  40. oh my gosh, why isn’t my hairdresser further up this list? clearly great haircuts from my awesome stylist ought to be further up this list. Last but not least, saved the best for last, and all that, right?

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