I used these words to describe how I feel today, just for those who might not understand the specialness that is Fibromyalgia.
I feel like a Sumo wrestler sat on me all night while holding an elephant and a steamroller on his shoulders while I slept and now I’m paying the price. It’s nauseating me. I haven’t been able to eat today. My hands have that “I can’t lift heavy stuff or open tight lids” feeling. Yoga isn’t helping today. I had errands to run but I don’t feel safe driving.
Just in case you were confused, this is not a good feeling. I worry about taking too much Advil since I’m not on any other medication for the fibro yet. I’m waiting on a rheumatologist to accept my PCP‘s referral. Too much Advil in a short time period can cause “kickback” headaches which aren’t as bad as the rest of the pain and not nearly as bad as migraines or stress headaches. It’s still a sign that you’re taking it too frequently.
Anyway, today just isn’t a really good pain day. Bone deep. I know it’s bad even with my high pain threshold because I’ve been getting the light-headedness that feels like I’m close to fainting. When I was still in college and later when I was newly married, I actually went to the doctor for that near-fainting. They called it “common fainting” because they didn’t know what was causing it. It’s continued through the years, and only when the diagnosis came and I started researching Fibromyalgia did I discover that this near-fainting is a symptom! How crazy is that? All this time I’ve had little clues adding up. I’ll save that for another post since this one is mainly for venting.
I’ve been taking Vitamin B supplements because they’re supposed to be good for joint health. I have to say, I’m not feeling any differences. It’s been over a month. I don’t know if I should give it more time, but it’s discouraging.
It’s not helping that I’m being “forced” to watch Suite Life on Deck with the episode where Bailey (what a stupid name for a girl character, especially one that’s supposed to come from a farm in Kansas) is possessed by some evil serpent queen. God, that’s a painful show to watch.