Okay, double you tea ehf with vibrating electric yard tools? They need a label on them for those of us who are Fibromyalgically© challenged.
“If you want to have the shakes in your bones for the rest of the day, this is totally the tool for you! Feel like wobbling your ice water all over your laptop? Wiggling your plate until your hot dog flies off? Then you’ll love the Black and Decker yard edger and weeder! Do you just get weak in the knees at the thought of shaky and weak knees? Try our hedge trimmer! And as a bonus your shoulders might sing with that extra special buzz!”
Yes, I made up the word “Fibromyalgically©.” So what? I have Fibromyalgia. I can do that when making a mockery of my disease. Because it’s either that or cry over what I did to myself today without realizing what I was doing to myself until I was sloshing ice water all over myself after edging the yard. My flare up from the past several days was easing up so I thought it would be a great time to catch up on yard work while the going was good.
I’m an ass, apparently. It’s been several hours at this point so I’m feeling better. The worst part is that I should have known better and it was disconcerting not having control over shaking wrists. My neck is cracking in that spot at the base of my neck… that loud POP! CRACK! when you roll your neck? Or do you not get that unless you have, you know, “issues?”
Here’s where I get pissed off. I’m capable. I enjoy doing things for myself. I even enjoy yard work and fixing things around the house. I hate that over the years I’ve become more progressively limited by pain, nerve, and joint problems and I have no control over it. You’re reading a blog written by a control freak. Someone with serious control issues including OCD. Having less control over things unexpectedly is disconcerting to someone used to having a measure of control over, well, everything.
But that’s what blogging is for and that’s what therapy is for. That’s what Advil is for and that’s why I’m getting pissed off that I’m not getting a call back from a rheumatologist.