Juliana was always convinced that Anneliese was supposed to be a boy. She simply couldn’t understand how Anneliese was a sister, even though she adores her.
Recently Juliana overheard me talking to Tracy about having lost you, and she asked me if that meant a baby had died. I told her yes, that Mommy was pregnant but that God took you home to Heaven before you could be born. She cried and said “So that’s where my little brother Zachary went. He went to Heaven, and he died.” It touched me even more when she hugged me, because I felt like finally there was some genuine acknowledgement over you. Juliana accepted you so easily, with an open mind and heart and love and tears. And she reinforced to me what I’ve always known, that you are my missing baby boy.
So you have a name, my little angel. Zachary. And Zachary is who you’ll always be in my heart.
Mommy loves you.